Memorial day weekend . . . 3 day weekend . . . how did I use that time . . . I had a busy week (we probably almost all say we had a busy week every week, so lets not be surprised) . . . and I thought I deserved some rest, but I rested too much, I felt lackadaisical and passive, wasn’t sure what I wanted to do, and basically I just kinda aimlessly loafed around. I felt guilty about it, but didn’t do anything about it. Next time you’re busy, take a moment to write down all the things that come to mind that need to be done. When you don’t have time, you have everything to do, and when you do have time, you can’t think of any of those things. Paradoxes, they are funny.
How often do we submit to feelings, and allow them to dictate what we do or don’t do. Perhaps feelings are cue signs, trying to direct us to do something about them, versus giving into them. It’s like, “alert alert you’re feeling bored, take a risk, please!”
“The truly free individual is free only to the degree of his own self mastery. While those who will not govern are condemned to find masters to rule over them.” – Steven Pressfield
I remember working on a story in Meisner class one time, and telling my acting coach, Elaine, “I don’t feel like apologizing though.” She directed me to get on my knees and improv begging for forgiveness within the circumstances of that story. I took the position and began begging, and all of a sudden I felt bad, and all of a sudden I could genuinely apologize.
Tuesday came, and I figured enough was enough, we all have too much to do to be passive in life. When you’re in a mood, I suppose it’s good to know, what tools will get you out of it. I listened to Joyce Meyers podcast episode, “Be Aggressive,” I read a few pages from some inspiring books, prayed, and worked out. And much of it, I did not “feel,” like doing initially, but I fell into feeling like it, once I was doing. It worked in class, and it works in life.
I’ll be 100% honest with you, there’s a lot of things in life that basically, I don’t feel like doing. Who feels like doing laundry? Going to the DMV? Life isn’t made for what we feel like doing, because if it was I’d be vacationing all the time, enjoying the meals from our live in chef, scuba diving, and someone else would do all the hard stuff, and the stuff that isn’t hard, but I just would rather not do, thanks whoever that magical person is, but no thanks.
“Just do it.” – Nike
We’re made for endurance, and hard work. We stay healthy by enduring and working hard. Loaf off, and always escape, and you’ll get soft.
So I had decided Tuesday morning, that I would be aggressive and committed to my artistic work and goals for the day. By that evening, our neighbors and Derrick were kicking back on their newly decorated balcony, and trust me it’s amazing, relaxing, and definitely an inviting space to be in. I was working on a story, and Derrick came over and said, “Hey baby, do you wanna come over and hang out with us?” Now, if you’ve seen my husband’s sweet, endearing, beautiful, round brown eyes, with his cute smile and dimples, mixed with his charming demeanor and humor. . . saying no is an obstacle.
“The more important an activity is to your soul’s evolution, the more resistance you will feel.” – Steven Pressfield.
If you’re not experiencing any challenges from yourself, others, or circumstances, check the direction you’re going.
I stuck to my commitment . . . kind of . . . I began trying to rush through my work, which is pointless, and I wasn’t as focused, because I kept thinking, “I want to go over there, have fun, some good conversation, and quality time. Dang!” Now, could I have gone over for a little while to get some instant gratification . . . maybe, but it was already getting late, and focusing while sleepy isn’t a good combination. Could I push my work to tomorrow?
Tomorrow has a lot of unfulfilled commitments and is full of hopeful thoughts. And decisions are not thoughts, decisions require action.
“What is always coming, but never arrives?” Tomorrow.
Besides, the odds of playing catch up, aren’t that good. 9 times out of 10, I lose, catch up involves doing the catch up and current stuff, which equals rushed, busy, tired and stressed. Better to progress daily and steadily. I’m learning to be the tortoise, instead of the hare.
“Make the sacrifice worthy of the loss.”
Better to be focused and committed, so that the sacrifice counts, if not, I might as well go shoot the breeze and have a good time.
“Are you really doing what you say you’re doing, or are you just pretending.” – Elaine Williams
There are so many alluring and gratifying distractions, TV shows, reruns of our favorite shows/movies, social media, the mall, Amazon (how I love it), etc. Be careful of rabbit holes. You go on social media to see one thing, and next thing you know, it’s 30 mins. and 5 videos later. And for what? Most of it is entertaining, and surface level enlightenment. I can remember a few videos and pictures that were wonderful and touching, but I’m not sure if any of them made a huge impact in my life, you? 30 minutes of Viktor Frankl’s, “Man’s Search for Meaning,” book though did make an impact.
“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving” – Albert Einstein
Sacrifice involves some level of suffering. Even passing up a delicious cupcake can hurt a little.
“I hated every minute of training, but I said, Don’t quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion.” – Muhammad Ali
“Lazy people want much but get little, but those who work hard prosper.” – Proverbs 13:4
“And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, the violent take it by force.” – Matthew 11:12
Our lives are not our own. If you’re Christian, then you were bought with a high price, Jesus’ sacrifice. Live your life boldly and courageously.