Would like, Want, & Nesting . . .
I thought I lost something in my persona this past Friday. A few times throughout the day I would hear myself, “oh I would like to _____ or that would be nice to ______.” After saying/thinking these phrases a couple of times, I thought oh my gosh, where’s my will, drive, and initiative? Where’s my go get it attitude? What’s happening to me?
Have you thought/said similar phrases? I’d like to have a house on the lake versus I want a house on the lake. I want to be a doctor or I’d like to be a doctor. Something about the suggestive thoughts/statements versus the more concrete thoughts/statements had me feeling uneasy. I was feeling extremely content, and not wanting anything.
So, I called my sister, Cindy and her response was extremely helpful and clarifying, “You’re nesting.”
Nesting – a pocketlike, usually more or less circular structure of twigs, grass,mud, etc., formed by a bird, often high in a tree, as a place in which to lay and incubate its eggs and rear its young; any protected place used by a bird for these purposes.
Up until now, I’ve always thought nesting was going into berserk cleaning mode. She explained how it’s a mindset as well, and if I was overly ambitious right now in the 3rd trimester I could run into some physical limitations and possibly have resentment for the limitations, so by my body and mind slowing down with complete contentment, I’m being prepared for the arrival of our baby. So of course my next question was, “Is my ambition going to come back?!” Her response, “Oh, yes with a vengeance, because it won’t be just about you reaching your goals for you and Derrick, it’ll be for her too, and nothing can/will stop you when it comes to your child.” And I said, “Whew, amen!”
So, what if you’re not nesting? I had a lot of time before my SOS call to Cindy, so I was thinking and searching for answers from google (lets not discuss that) and praying (more like frantic questions with little to no listening), and looking up Bible verses.
Initially, I thought the issue of not being definitive of what I wanted was rooted in doubt, unbelief, and/or fear of not getting it.
One internet person seemed to agree saying, “…some kind of internal fear or maybe it’s about being sensible and understanding your limitations and failings. One of the wisest things for a person, in my opinion is to correctly evaluate their own short-comings and qualities and then find out their own niche of satisfaction…I do wonder though, on whether or not some people really do want nothing? Or is it that they are too afraid to admit they want something and try for it? If you dont want anything, you dont have to try for anything and so there is no risk of failure or lost potential.”
I agree with him/her to a point; however, limitations/failings are not indicators of possibilities or opportunities, unless you accept or believe them to be. Dreaming and working towards our dreams is vital. It keeps are blood churning and sparks in our eyes. And as we get older, face more disappointments, and add circumstances called life, responsibilities, and bills it can feel suffocating to dream and impossible even, but “feelings aren’t facts.” We have to dig deep and with courage believe again, and again, and again.
“Some people die at 25 and aren’t buried until 75.”
We don’t have to be part of those ‘some,’ we can choose to be part of the some that voyage, that dare to hope, and to get out of the boat and walk on water.
“Doubt your doubts.” – Joyce Meyer
There is a time for everything – rest and work (sowing & reaping), and I believe regardless of the season the time to hope, believe, and live by faith is always. So, if you feel yourself waning check in with your beliefs/thoughts about you, beliefs of what’s possible, and most importantly your thoughts and beliefs of what’s possible with God.
“For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written, ‘The just shall live by faith.” – Romans 1:17
“Why do you call me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and not do what I tell you?” – Luke 6:46
“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” – Hebrews 11:1
“Set your mind on things that are above, not on things that are on the earth.” – Colossians 3:2
“For nothing will be impossible with God.” – Luke 1:37
“As you do not know the way the spirit comes to the bones in the womb of a woman with child, so you do not know the work of God who makes everything.” – Ecclesiastes 11:5
“so that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.” – 1 Corinthians 2:5
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” – Proverbs 3:5
“Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life.” – Proverbs 4:23
“But I do not account my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God.” – Acts 20:24
“But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.” – Romans 8:25
“The apostles said to the Lord, ‘Increase our faith!” – Luke 17:5
“So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.” – Romans 10:17