You Know Nothing, Courtney Lindsay

I think, I thinks too much.  Thinking and knowing are two different things entirely.  Just like knowing and believing are different too.  Would you agree? I had an opportunity (audition) last week, and I didn’t think I did a good job during the meeting, even after the casting director said, “I’ll call you back tomorrow.”  I thought, “Really, why?” And they called me back.  Did the callback, I was nervous, and came out wondering, “hmmm…I’m still here?”  Went in a final time, came out of the room, and then there was the tap on the shoulder from the casting director, “You’re on avail, call her people.”  WHHHHAAAAT?! YAY!

Thank God my feelings nor my thoughts dictated their decision, nor God’s favor.

Avail became booked, and we shot.

I jokingly told my Dad, “Sometimes I wish I was 17 again, I knew everything, and now, I just keep learning I know nothing.”  Learning what I don’t know is valuable.  That is where there’s opportunity for growth, challenge, failure, and success.  In order to learn we have to be open to new information, people, methods, and experiences.  Constantly challenging our boundaries and perspectives of what’s life and this world.  Unlearning is vital too.  Some things we “know,” isn’t serving us well.

Our perceptions of ourselves, our work, etc., aren’t necessarily true.  You may think you didn’t do this/that, or you’re not this/that, but your work and you have more value than you think.  Just do your best doing this and that.

The take aways:  Always do my part, prepare, know that I’m enough (mindset), don’t say no to myself, before the decision maker, and leave the rest alone; thinking or worrying about outcome, doesn’t give me control of the outcome, more likely it’ll just take me out of the moment and miss the now.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.  Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take.” – Proverbs 3:5,6