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It takes tears (maybe)

One thing I noticed today as I was sleep training our 5 month old son, Liam, and potty-training our 23 month old daughter, Haris, they were both crying (no tears, plenty of noise)…

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3 Books, 1 Play, 1 Planner, 1 Journal & 1 Me

These are all the items I took with me when Haris was going to lay down to take a nap.  My intentions were to read each book for 20 minutes, journal for 10 minutes or so, work on a monologue, reassess my goals and plan, answer 2 emails, and read 3 others.  Easy enough.

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Regrets and Moderation

Definition of regret

regrettedregretting

transitive verb
1a to mourn the loss or death of
b to miss very much

2to be very sorry for 

  • regrets his mistakes
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Determination

How much do you have?

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Sleigh Bells Rang . . .

Christmas was just last week, which means it’s almost 2018 . . .

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Yay! Finally . . .

I moved from thinking to doing. And guess what happened . . .

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How Many Steps?

Ever make a complicated recipe?  Or begin a project only to realize what you thought would take 2 days actually takes 2 months?

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Me time…

If I was her I would…  If I was him I wouldn’t… isn’t it always easier to do or see what someone should do when the pressure isn’t on you.  If only we could stand back from ourselves for a better perspective and self awareness.  Well…
It’s 8:30 in the morning, I’m walking down the steps in tennis shoes, no socks, sweat pants, a sweatshirt, and no bra, it’s too early.  And no 8:30am isn’t early, I slept in, and there’s no need to rush to put on restraining contraptions.  “Do your business,” is my morning chant with Douglass, our dog.
You know those moments, like an epiphany, that’s when it happened. I saw something that had been right in front of me…for like…ever.
Step by step, the Holy Spirit, told me my problem is, I’m not consistent. Two things will stress me more than anything…time, and sleep.  Time dictates what can be done, and sleep, like it or not, dictates the energy I have to do it.
Time – consistency, and efficiency.
 
There is not a lot of consistency in my schedule, in places where there could be.  I would ‘blame,’ my schedule, or that auditions aren’t at the same time, or because my work schedule is different on Wednesdays blah blah blah.  Sounds like excuses to me.  I’ve never had an audition before 10:00am, and there’s a practice called planning, and Wednesdays come every week, so no surprise there.
Two areas in time that need to be disciplined are the time I go to bed and time I wake up.  If I’m not borrowing time from tomorrow, it’ll allow tomorrow to be easier.  When setting goals I’m looking ahead at what possible hurdles could trip me up.  Setting my phone in the bathroom does wonders for getting up, and for going to sleep, bye meaningless strolling down Instagram lane.  
Efficiency – I do some meandering…like what am I doing taking so long to tinkle…oh I’m scrolling down instagram, reading emails, etc.  NOTHING!!!  Or there’s the moments of being on the internet and all of sudden I’m taking a quiz on which power ranger am I…what?  That adds to my life how?  As I get older, I’m reminded I don’t have forever.
My hope is that maybe this post, will help you, see you.
“Teach us to number our days, that we may gain wisdom of heart.” – Psalm 90:12 NIV
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Do you do the splits?

  • flexible
    • capable of bending easily without breaking
    • able to be easily modified to respond to altered circumstances or conditions
    • (of a person) ready and able to change so as to adapt to different circumstances

I woke up with a plan, I got to work, sat down and started working that plan, and then an interruption.  A last minute audition at 1:00pm.  Change in plans.  I run home, get dressed, make up, etc., go to the audition, wait an hour to be seen, audition.  On my way back to work, I get a phone call, another last minute audition.  I stop at my first job to change clothes, eat lunch, and on my way to the second audition.

Now, I should be ecstatic!  

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Cheating…or…Committed?

Most people would agree, someone is either committed or not.  Or maybe, committedly cheating.

I’ve cheated on several tests in high school, and dare I say college (y’all know who you are that came to my apartment with laptops…online tests…all turned in within minutes of each other…and the professor didn’t know?  Maybe he/she was hoping we’d collaborate (sounds better than cheating, lets not deceive ourselves)  Yeah okay…moving on).

Something dawned on me while doing my acting work this week.  I was listening to a lecture of Diana Castle’s and she said,

“Many people hold back from investing fully and making full commitments because they’re afraid they might get hurt, disappointed, or rejected.”  She goes on to say, “If you don’t make a full investment all you get back is more of what you know.”